As I sat and talked to my doctor, he explained to me and pointed out to me the signs I have had all my life. One time, I went hiking with my friends, and we barely went far at all but it was up hill. My legs felt fine but I was winded and started coughing and it hurt really bad. I was humiliated. I thought, I am so fat and out of shape, this is so embarrassing. They must think I am a total cow!
Then it was disheartening to watch those shows of the morbidly obese people trying to lose weight and I notice that I get WAY more winded than they do! What's up with that? I seriously thought that I was just really, really out of shape.
But, I wasn't about to let weak, out-of-shape lungs get in the way of meeting my goals. And I worked really hard to get my lungs in shape so I could run well. But then when these stupid colds came along I felt like I was dying and when I got back to running, it was like I had to start all over again! Frustrating to the extreme!
Now when the doctor told me I had more than exercised induced asthma, I panicked a little. Then he told me I had asthma. Luckily, even though I had gone untreated for 30 years, I had been treating it in my own way by being active, doing deep breathing, and other things to strengthen my lungs. But he was really concerned about the attacks I was having at night and in the mornings and told me that I may have gone untreated in the past, but I can't do that anymore. So now, and for the rest of my life, I have to have 2 inhalers. One for when I work out and if I have any random attacks, and one that I have to take every morning and night that will help me to breath better and feel normal. Well, I don't know what "normal" is supposed to feel like, but I look forward to finding out.
I was a little depressed about the whole thing. Mainly, it was pride, I think. I was really glad that there was an explanation for all my problems, but at the same time, I never want to fall into a trap where I use it as an excuse not to make my goals and work harder. The doctor said that my running will improve, that I will be able to go faster and for longer and I REALLY look forward to that because I refuse to let this beat me.
I do have to wait a couple days until I can start running again. But I am really looking forward to see what I can REALLY do.
Weight after I had baby: 254
Weight before I started running a couple months ago: 231
Weight when Ben left: 220
Weight last check in: 210
Weight this morning: 208
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Weight this morning: 208
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