I literally can't help it! Words flow out my mouth like water from a broken dam, and I can't stop them from coming. So these last few months I have been building up this guilt for things that I have said, and it just keeps getting worse.
What does a girl do?
I tried to explain to my friend that I couldn't help what I said and I am really sorry about some of the super rude things I said to her. I reminded her that I am not always like that... I hope she understood. Not to mention my poor sister... who may think I've gone crazy! And my mom doesn't seem to call as much anymore either...
I even have a hard time not writing about certain stuff on here. Ben has to read over my shoulder most of the time and say, "Now are you sure that is something you want to tell the world?" Erk! No, not really! Cat learn to control those fingers of yours too!
I think most people that are close to me have decided that if they really love me and want to save our relationship, they just shouldn't spend too much time with me. Which is fine with me, because I don't want to lose friendships over these loose lips of mine. And the biggest problem is, I don't really mean most of the things I say! They're usually just some flitting thoughts that I have, that really aren't how I feel.
So if I tell you your husband's a loser... I swear I didn't mean it! And I promise I will be nicer after I have this baby. I asked my OB/GYN if there was some kind of medication I could take, and she said that if there was a pill for tact life would be good!
Luckily this is only temporary... right?