This particular day, "the guys" want Ben to tell me about a certain Military Spouse support website. They said all their girlfriends are on there and really like it. Sure, whatever, I thought. I hardly have time to blog let alone check out more sites.
Then the other night I was bored. Not in the mood to blog, or watch a movie, so I decided to check out this site the guys were telling me about.
Let's just say, what I read gave me nightmares that night.
In one hour, I learned more about other military spouses than I ever wanted to know. The forums were like huge cat fights, and people were reviling intimate details of their lives that should stay just that, intimate, not public. I just couldn't take it anymore and turned it off. I just couldn't read anymore about Gays in the Military, or about how we military wives should be expected to be cheated on because our men need to get some over seas. I cried with the wives who lost husbands to other women or to the war, and stressed with the Navy women who are freaking about whether or not they are going to start putting women on the subs. I even fumed at the women who said that spouses should not receive any benefits from the military. Seriously, she said dependents are all lazy and need to get off the couch and get jobs -- how dare we spend the money our husbands earn. Then there was the huge battle of military wives vs. military girlfriends. Absolutely childish! I just couldn't take it in any more. Enough is enough!
The site claims it for all Military Spouses to feel comfortable and find support there. I didn't feel comforted at all. It was nerve racking to hear all the horror stories and all the whining and complaining. It was like the ultimate reality show in writing! I hate to admit this, but as much as I didn't like what I was reading, I just couldn't stop...
Anyway, I finally got away, and most likely won't be going back. I have found a great military support group (military and non-military wives -- and even a few guys!) on my own here through my blog and theirs -- thanks friends!
I'm not saying there is anything wrong with it. There are people out there that need something like that. Me, I get enough drama here at home. I don't have the energy to deal with stuff like that. There is just some things a woman, like me, just doesn't need to know. Know what I mean?
I'm thinking, I just want things to be the way they were before my eyes were so rudely opened. I was perfectly happy in my little bubble of peace and naivete.
Needless to say, I was watching the clock the next afternoon, waiting for the time I could call my man. I needed to be reassured that he is a great guy and would never be like all those other husbands... And I was. Ben is the perfect man for me.
I feel really blessed, I do. As much as I ache for those other wives, I want to be a part of something better, more uplifting, and a whole lot more patriotic.