No kidding. I had an honest to good tantrum. You should have seen the boys faces. I wish I had had a camera.
I had had it with the fighting, the messes, the destruction of my precious things. I couldn't take the yelling and crying and fits. The beaning each other with toys and coloring on the walls and furniture was just too much! And when I came in the living room to find 2 full packages of wipes unloaded and completely covering the carpet white... I couldn't bear it anymore.
Now there were lots of little things leading up to this Mother of all Tantrums (pun intended) -- but mostly all the little reasons came down to 3 big ones:
1. Ben being gone had finally taken it's toll on me. I just couldn't be strong anymore without giving into that big cry that I haven't had in a while. Sometimes I feel so trapped in this house with no adult conversation and feeling a slave to the needs of the little ones.
2. Kids having every kind of illness keeping us shut up in the Nutshell. This would drive anyone bonkers after half a day.
3. I needed a nap. I REALLY REALLY needed a nap. And those don't come when you're the only parent in the house... AND the only one who will take a nap.
So when the going got tough, I threw a tantrum. It was quite a show, if I may say so myself. The kids even stood transfixed, jaws hanging as all laid it all out on the living room floor.
It was silent when I stopped. Then I just started crying. After a minute or so, I heard a little hand on my shoulder, and a little voice say: "Mama okay?"
It was Nephi. I told him I was fine. And you know what? I WAS! I felt great! It felt so nice to get it all out and let it go... and now it was all okay. Actually, I felt so good, I started to laugh... which made the boys laugh too.
We ended up rolling around in the wet wipes laughing and tickling each other. It was nice.
Now, I am ready to face the week and move forward! Less than 8 weeks until Ben comes home for Christmas!! Woo Hoo!
The moral of this story: It's okay for the Mama's and Dada's out there to pitch their own fits every once in a while. Man, does it feel good!
I got an email from Hallmark a few weeks back, asking me to tell you all about their holiday Charity Cards collect this year. For every purchase you make, 20% of the profits goes to a charity of your choice, including: March of Dimes charity (a non-profit that promotes pregnancy and baby health) and the Susan G Komen for the Cure charity (a breast cancer charity organization). For details click here.
A reminder that I am still taking entries for my Halloween Homemade Costume Contest. So far I have only had ONE entry... come on guys, I know you don't all buy pre-made costumes! And it doesn't even have to be completely homemade, just original ideas. The winner will receive a $50 gift certificate to Albertson's or Smith's (which ever is best for the winner) -- I figure this would pay for a nice Thanksgiving meal or other food items you may need or want. For more details click my link on the left side.
Update: Don't worry if you don't have an Albertson's or Smiths, if you are a winner, let me know a local store you shop at and I am sure I can find a gift cert. online.
Everyone have a super Monday!!