My numbers went down literally over night! For a long time I was get 20+ comments a day, then the next day only 5 and every day after that only 5. My followers went down by 4 and my heart started to hurt. What was I doing wrong? I think it might be the giveaways... the numbers always go down for those. I have to wonder if "Fat Butt Friday" is a bust or maybe the "Golden Nut" just plain sucks. Maybe it is because I am not following their blogs, or not commenting enough? I just don't know.
Is my writing failing? No, I don't think so. In fact, some awesome doors have opened for me since I started this blog. Did I tell you I am going to be a real writer now? I am going to have my own column in a literary magazine (details soon to come).
Do I feel let down? Do I feel like a failure? Does this make me want to stop? NO. NO. NO.
Times like these are GOOD for the soul. Let me tell you why. It is these slow, discouraging moments that make you stop and reflect and put things in proper perspective. Why does this blog mean so much to me? Because it is mine. My work, my words, my achievements, my mistakes, my failures, my triumphs and trials, my love and my joys. I am reminded why I do this. Because I love being a mom and I love writing.
Getting caught up in all the blogging stuff can be overwhelming! Product reviews, accepting awards, commenting on other blogs... and much more, can be for a person like me, too much! Especially with my husband gone, I find just enough time to check my email and write a post now and then. As much as I loved reading other blogs and commenting, it is becoming more difficult everyday to keep up with it. Sometimes I just want to pull my hair out!
I am sorry if I am such a bad blogging friend. I think that is why I have been doing the Golden Nut Award, to try to make up me being away from the computer. But I want all of you to know, that I love you. I feel so blessed to have so many readers and fans out there cheering me on. Especially right now when life seems so hard. I put on a brave face and I joke about it A LOT... but the truth is, humor is how I keep from crying. And sometimes it isn't enough.
Life gets so lonely sometimes, that I live for the comments from all of you, to remind me that I am still cool and cared for. It's hard being in The Nutshell all day without conversation... any conversation. So I just want to say thanks.
From now on, I am going to try hard to keep myself from feeling guilty when I can't read everyone's blogs, or accept awards or even pass up product reviews. Please know that I still care!
Any thoughts?? I would love to hear what you think about the big blogging world out there.
Also, if you haven't already, pop on over to my new blog "Cat Spills the Beans" -- I have been posting blog design tips over there in answer to emails I have received. You might find something you like! But you'll never know until you go on over. Also I am looking for someone to help me with it, if anyone is interested.